laughter beyond sadness..

just had a blast celebrating athi's bday..really2 release tension siut..great fun!! semua cam high..saket tekak gelak..keke..anyway.. HAPPY belated BDAY again ATHI! =D

n to all dancers..good job..everyone performed their best! CONGRATS! proud of u guys..n im sure abg rudy will be happy as well =D

continuation from my last post..yes im still pissed..but right now i guess it has turned into sadness..i dono y but i just cant get this out of my head since yesterday.. nk tdo pun terpk..bukak mate pun terpk..bloody hell lah..i seriously need to get out of welly!! cpt la rabu!

i hate hypocrites! out of all ppl i cant believe ur d one who sed it..y cant u just come c me n say it right to my face?? takot ek? to those of u yg tau this story..plz dont blame d sumber..dont blame anyone..guess i have d right to know..

i got to know that rupenye my appearance was not wanted.. i know that this year i have no rights to say anything..but just cuz i really luv 'it' n cuz me n the other seniors have brought it to quite a high level..of cuz i don wan it to go to waste.. n fyi, one of the reasons i helped was cuz ive been asked to..not once..not twice..quite a number of time by AR..ive always been reminded to come..n yes i came although i have tonnes of work to do.. i came tho i had submissions..

i never complained..maybe just among us tho..well biase la tu.. i helped as much as i can..stil i think i did control on how much i could say..n yet u dare say such thing? i was shocked..surprised..i was soo pissed until i feel sad..sad until i feel like crying..oh well i did cry..

but..y should i be sad? i dare say that ive done a lot.. if u don like it..y should i care? ur d one who is selfish..but its easier said than done..i was really2 sad til i couldnt enjoy my last performance just now..although i think we did better than before.. i didnt fell satisfied..i was really2 excited to perform weeks before..hey its my last performance after 4 years..but guess uve destroyed it..its sickening to remember my last performance like this..aaaaaaaaaarrrrrgghhh! demmit!

waah..tulis bende ni pun air mata dh jatuh..haih.. so i better stop now..